What am I doing again?

Sometimes I forget I even started a blog.. and a website.. I had hopes and dreams and after a while they fizzled out into different things. I wanted so desperately to have an awesome blog, but I gave up before I got real results, why? Because it didn’t feel “me”.

I lost myself in it, I honestly found myself worrying more about the pictures I was going to put in the blogs, the “title” to draw in readers, the paragraphs being the right size so people didn’t click out of it within 20 seconds of opening it and scrolling down..

And now I’ve realised that for me, that’s being someone I’m not. That doesn’t show who I truly am or what I truly want to get across. I didn’t want thousands of views for traffic or money, ideally what I wanted was people to connect to the words I wrote, and even if that was one other person.. I didn’t care.

I didn’t want to write “informative” pieces, I  wanted to write what was real, what was the raw me. Even if it doesn’t make any sense!!

I never cared for being judged, for being famous, for any of that, so why I got caught up in all of this XYZ business tips and tricks for bloggers, I’m not quite sure. It was a quick way to get my passion to fizzle out.

What I’m about is writing from the heart, spur of the moment- like right now. Writing about things that are important or that come to me out of a single burst of inspiration. Whether I’m writing it for my own benefit or for 2 other readers.. who cares?! I do it because I have something to say, and I want to say it now. I don’t want to pre plan content for the next x months.  

The views that come in are those who enjoy it, get something out of it, or are simply supporting me- and I’m okay with all of those!

My writing is about the feels, the visions, the creativity, the inspiration; the typos and the things that might not make sense to anyone but me.. but it’s okay, because it’s me. I’m a Mum, I’m tired and I’m not trying to be perfect, I’m just trying to be me!

Anyway, you may not hear from me everyday or every week, but I promise from now on that when I do it will be 100% the raw me.

Some updates on what I’ve been doing ..

I finished writing my first book on Anxiety. Let’s be honest, it probably won’t be a top seller and I’m not sure I’ve done it right, but it is from the heart and it will get to those who need it! I need to stay positive about everything I do.

I have studied and become a qualified Holistic Counsellor and certified in Neurolinguistic programming. I am awaiting my Life Coaching Diploma.

I am now certified in Reiki level 1, and have signed up for a diploma in crystal healing as well.

These Holistic complimentary therapies and the lifestyle has taken over my life in the best way possible.

I know I am on earth to help and to heal, and I will do so in ALL the ways I am pulled in. I have no clue where I will end up but I know I’m heading in the right track. I have meaning and purpose now. I have to trust my intuition.

I am still learning, I still make mistakes, but I have the mental tools I need to succeed.

I’m so excited for everyone to be on this journey with me, and am excited to help others with their own journey. 

I’m still learning to enjoy the process.. the journey.. as I tend to set my sights on “happiness” once I’ve achieved my goals, but I’m learning now that if we are waiting for something to give us happiness then we are looking in the wrong place. Happiness lies within ourselves and no material thing, person or place will give this to us. 

Working on yourself is one of the most amazing things you can do for yourself and others around you. 

I just want to make sure you’re all taking care of yourself, do things for you. 

Wake up each day and think, “How do I want today to go? What do I want today? How can I help? What am I grateful for? How can I look at my situation positively? What goals can I set for this week?”

And please, make sure you keep time to RELAX! With yourself!! 💕💕

This week I am – going to focus on healing and my physical health, focus on what I’m thinking & start making some more lists towards achieving the life I want, and start living it like I have it TODAY 💕


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